I be up in the gym just workin on my fitness...

So today was day one of my working out. Pretty good! I was on the eliptical for 30 min and then walked about 4 miles with Bianca (my bestest friend) tonight. I weighed myself at 24-hr Fitness though and it was bad news bears! I way the most I ever have at a whoppint 228 lbs. I don't know when I let myself get this bad, when did I let my healthy eating patterns and moderate work outs slip right out the window? Its gonna be hard but it doesn't mean I can't get back. I'm ready to work for this-for me! Not for anyone else :)

There are three baby birds on our porch that just hatched. The two parents take shifts all day watching the babies or getting them food and they switch off. Then tonight when I was in the hot tub I noticed that one of the parents was sitting on the light nearby guarding them and I thought to myself what great parents, what a great relationship. Why can't humans be that way? Birds have always been beautiful to me because they are so free, they have so much life and so much hope. "Look at the birds of the air, the do not sow or reap or store away in barns and yet their heavenly father feeds them". I hope and pray that I learn to be like a bird. To fully trust, and in that trust to find my own rhythm. And in that life I hope to find a place and a peace like what those little birds had today.

Pardon our Progress

I don't know why, but I decided I wanted to blog. When I was a kid I used to write in a journal every night, and though I enjoy writing now, it seems much easier to be able to express my thoughts on here.

I'm at a starting point in my life right now. I'm battling a mental issue, heading towards my career and working to lose weight and live my life healthily. I'm a different person today than I was three years ago, and I know I'll change in the future as well. Change is messy, isn't it? Sometimes its organized, sometimes its chaotic but progress-that is something different. Its a certain type of change. Progress to me is what you do with the change in your life. Am I using every opportunity to better myself and help those around me?

I've noticed signs that are hung up during construction lately. This construction usually isn't related to highways, its more like when they are remodeling the children's center at a church, or updating an art gallery at a museum, even building a new ride a Six Flags. They read "Pardon our progress". It's a witty statement. The sign makes you aware that whatever the present state of the construction looks like-the labor will not be in vain. Its going to be something great.

Pardon my progress.